no clue what i'm doing, but here it is (newest posts will be at the TOP, if i'm not an idiot)
07/16/2025, Learning Languages
AH!! i completely forgot (and also was extremely too tired to update) about this blog!! i'm very sorry, but i am back!! there's been something that has been bugging me recently; i would love to learn another language. specifically russian maybe. i've grown up in a slavic household, not by any means one that uses the cyrillic alphabet, nor am i even fully fluent in my own families language. (thinking on this i should probably work on that hm?) i sound like such a loser talking about this but i think the culture and music of the language sounds quite nice. i don't know what i'm really going to do honestly, i'm thinking about starting to learn but i just feel as if i'm too late to try. also, because i already AM learning another language, i've been taking mandarin classes and i'm going into my third year but i feel like i no longer really have the passion to learn it anymore, it just slowly has became too much of a hassle to try and learn and i feel like maybe i should've just quit on my second year, but i feel bad because i don't want to leave my classmates behind i guess. not only all of that, but also the fact that i may be too old to learn a language fully to a certain extent. this may just be scientist garbage but they say 17 to 18 is the age range when it may be too late to learn a language to a 'master' level. it just sorta disencourages me from even trying, but i feel like maybe i can still do it somehow, i'd like to believe at least. maybe those scientists were WRONG and i can learn it fully and be a fluent speaker, being fluent in another language also means you could revolve yourself into an entire different culture, and i think that'd be cool. although, it's between my own 'native' language and one with an entire different alphabet. i can't really pick, but it would be awesome to know both, i'd feel special and acomplished i think. (BY THE WAY if you're reading to this point still please leave a message in my guestbook on how you feel about this or your own experiences with learning languages, positive and negative reinforcement is all welcome, you can also make fun of how ugly my blog is as well, i completely understand you.) to sum this all up, i really want to learn another language, but my own research is doubting my efforts, but i think i might soon finally make the push to actually learn something for once in my life. (instead of running away from my problems ;_;) i would also like to point out a certain person i love so much, they have a cyrillic keyboard on their iphone. (you know who you are cutie :p)
07/13/2025, Slavic Picnics
i'm trying this out again, hopefully when i finish this my photos will work fine. i don't really know what to talk about, maybe except for the fact i had to go to 2 PICNICS TODAY. they were both 40 minutes apart and i had another 40 minutes to drive home. absolutely horrible, and i wouldn't wish it upon anyone i know or hate, i would actually wish it upon someone i hate, because it's not that bad i just like to complain. oh, and i was using the bathrooms at the first picnic and they're pictured below. (1) i think they look very post-soviet and deshelved. they're gross but i think it's funny to imagine this place like it's somewhere in half-life 2, i mainly think of alex crish's crazy stories when i see it. (2) even though the photo is taking place on the train you can see (not really now that i'm typing it out) it sorta is (not) similar to it..ish. i also caught a bug dancing, i have absolutely no clue why he was dancing, like and it was sorta in tune to the music. (3) he looks ugly, but wasn't so bad. i think it was also probably not good to eat placki ziemniaczane z gulaszem while drinking a coffee on the side, it upset my stomach but i didn't care much because my GOD it was delicious. trust me if you in my spot you'd do the same. (i'd hope) the second picnic was horrible, too many people, and i wouldn't recommend it to anyone. they had horses but that's it. 2/10 day, i only really enjoyed the food, hated the driving and hated the people. (second picnic at least, complete assholes, stop blowing your smoke in my face.) did i also mention i'm tired? i left the house at 9:00 and got home at 20:00.
07/12/2025 Hello Hello! (i debated on doing 12.07.2025 but i feel like that'd make me look like a loser.)
hello, i've joined this site, i wonder if my website will get banned because i included a swear in my tags. i'm also way too lazy to try and do any of those cool things you see on the frontpage, i also don't care. i think most peoples websites are over the top and ugly. oh WOW this place is so much more better than twitter, i got so tired of not being able to fit how i feel into such a small place for words. it's quite magical really. GAHH hello WORLDDD i'm here for the first time!!! i should be so much more happy go lucky but i hate having to deal with html and css so much but i'd still rather HAVE to deal with manually doing all of this because if i don't then i'll have to go to some gay ass website builder that makes my shit look all modern and gross. ick. i think that's all i have to say for today, i'm tired and it's 12 in the morning already.
